Teaching, reading, discussion
everything had now lost its interest for Margaret. The Swamiji's voice was always ringing
in her ears. It seemed to her that India was calling her, unceasingly, insistently. She
felt that it was darkness all around and only in the east there was a streak of light. And
that streak of light seemed to be reaching out to her and beckoning her. "Your place
is there in India," the Swamiji had said, "but that can be only when you are
ready."
But was it so easy to make herself ready? The Swamiji himself had
graphically spoken of India to her. He had made her see India in all her squalor. Poverty,
ignorance, jealousy, filth - these had free play everywhere in that country. The British
would look down upon her. The Indians would treat her with suspicion and dislike; they
were people who treated their own fellow countrymen as untouchables. It was to serve the
women and educate the girls of such a country that Margaret was being called. And they
were women, so conservative, so narrow-minded, that they would not let her even cross
their orthodox thresholds. As for education, would they ever allow their precious
daughters to be taught by a woman of an alien faith?
It was at such a moment of doubt that she received from the Master this
heartening message: "It is not a man we need but a woman; a real lioness, to work for
the Indians, women specially….
"India cannot yet produce great women, she must borrow them from
other nations. Your education, sincerity, purity, immense love, determination, and above
all, the Celtic blood, make you just the woman India needs.